Last night a really good friend moved into town. A group of kids from Spokane threw him a party and invited me to come. So I went. It was great to see the kids from Spokane. I really enjoyed that part. Since emerging from my Middle School self-conscious phase, I have thought really highly of the kids I grew up with. I was mostly surrounded with guys who had really high standards in my LDS group of friends. I ended up being one of the guys. It's cool with me. I'm glad I got to be their friend. Anyway, last night was really hard for me though because at one point in my life I had a crush on three of them. Nothing ever happened with any of them, and now I've moved on to being with one of the most amazing guys I know.
Here's the rub though. I want to be friends with these guys now. I don't have many friends here in Provo anymore. Looking back at it I realize that I am in this situation because of the choices I made last year. I have only a few people here that I am so close to and care so very much about. I wouldn't give them up for anything. Anyway, going to that party last night made me so uncomfortable because there were tons of people there. I, unlike my sister, do not enjoy big groups of people. This makes it hard to branch out and make new friends. I don't know how to become close friends to these guys that I used to be so close to because I don't want to go over there with big groups of people. Plus, it feels weird to try and talk with the guys one on one now. I'm not sure why and perhaps I'm wrong in this feeling. I guess I just need to think about it more or something like that.
So anyway, I just realized that none of this has a point. So I'm going to stop now.
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So I guess you could just meet them for lunch or something. Those guys are kinda into big groups though, so I think lunch or cookie break would be the best.
Who moved into town?
It can be hard to become the cool chick that hangs out with all the guys in college. My advice is to just drop by about once a week and sit on their couch and talk. Don't make it like you have to *do* anything when you're with them becuase they there is some kind of expectations. Just treat them like they are your roommates. They already like you and think you're cool, so at least you don't have to deal with that. Plus, you're practically engaged so none of them will have to worry about being too friendly and making you think that they like you. Actually, they might really like having you around becuase you'd be a safe girl they could ask for advice and stuff.
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